Thursday, 2 May 2019

A Wonder full Journey


Once upon a time my father tried Self Hypnotism on me. I feel that is one type of meditation under one Guru’s eye and voice. However, that was a nice experience for me. I have experienced so many wonderful journeys that period of time. You can tell that as dream or something. But in my memory those are really a wonderful journey.
Yesterday I went Puri with my mother. We reached home at midnight and after having some delightful talk with my parents and had Avada (Mahaprasada of Puri) we slept because of heat and tiredness as this is a day in summer.
In morning somewhere I dreamed one of dream of self hypnotism from my previous journey, but little different. In previous dream I went to some bright place that may be present or not with milky white clouds and I was walking on that cloud searching for a friend or a best friend. While searching  I saw a palace made of same milky white stone from where a lot of people came who were glowing with same brightness. I was able to tell them as people because of the shape though I can’t see their face or recognize them. But I knew they are my family members or good people. One of them came to me and took my hand. He made a gesture which told to me to go with him some nice place where he (in my dream) wants to take me and show something. The time I reached near a door, my father called me back as per process that after some time of hypnotism will take effect they need to call back the person. That time I was unwilling to come back. I wanted to go through that door as well wanted to spend some time with that certain person. I was sad that I had so less time there, but my parents were worried and later they told I was gone for long time. In this journey one’s soul used go for a journey as per comment according to my father. As he didn’t want to lose my soul in the process they called me back to reality.
I don’t know how today in my sleep I started the same journey from the place I left that day years ago. I was again with the same person, but he was full of question this time. When last time he didn’t talk anything accepts a gesture to follow him!! He was asking me how the journey to Puri was. I replied it is wonderful. I was really happy being there and went to Puri after a long time.
 He asked me who you will watch when you remember your God.
I told “Radha Krishna”.
“Which temple you want to go again and again?” he asked me.
I thought of so many place, but I always longs to go to “Puri” I replied.
He smiled. Then he talked, “last time what I wanted to show you that you will see this time.”
“Really!!!” I was surprised and happy too for some reason.
Then he told “whatever that is, I want you to understand that you have done so well!” and he smiled again nodding.
I was thinking what have I done? Anything wrong? If yes, what? And anything right, what was that?
Then we reached to that door in my previous dream and this time it was open. He told me to go ahead and look inside. I did the same. Then saw there are so many Pots with so many shapes and sizes. Some big, you can tell some of them are bigger or huge pots are made up of Mud and others are a lot smaller than that those mud pots, but of different sizes and made up of some shinning metal may be gold or silver. Some were looks like made up of shinning glasses or are those of diamond! I was scared to look at Mud pots, thought those are filled with something black or dark brown things and was happy to look at the metal things. At first I thought maybe I am attracted to those because of shinning metals as I like things those glitters.
Wondering all these and eyes full of question I looked at that certain person who was standing beside me smiling and with great silence.  He saw questions in my eyes. Before I ask them he gave me the answer.
“Those mud pots are the sorrows or bad times in your life which you felt sometime in your life”.
 I was wondering so much I have gone through really! Hmm.....
Before I started wondering about the other pots, he started again “those pots are your happy times. I was wondering how you understood the concept that very less people in this world can understand!”
I was standing watching the place and thinking what was that.
He continued, “Those pots of happiness are collected by you, do you remember?”
“Really!” I was surprised. “Though I remember I wanted to live all small happy moments trying to remember at the time of worse situations, which helped me to come out without much scratch.”
“Yes”, those are the happy moments that you stored in your heart. Can you look into those empty spaces?” he asked.
I just nodded dazzled by the shinny pots and his talks.
Then he told again “May be some more of those Mud pots will come to those places as bad times are unavoidable in life, but I am hoping you will collect some more gold or diamond pots of happy moments either big or small without caring of size and fill this room with those, so that Mud pots will bury in between them”. And he looked at me with full of hope and encouraged smile.
With that smile in my mind I woke up with full of Wonders and ear ringing with his voice, because of morning sounds coming from Kitchen as my mother started cooking.
His hopeful eyes which I thought I saw in that moment are still floating in front my eyes and hoping I will do the same what he expected from me!

Monday, 31 December 2018

Leave with Fullness




Do you know when you feel lonely
Going down and down very slowly
So much chaos as people rush around you
But you are alone going very lowly

Lying on the thorn that is your bed
Not wanting to walk on the way of dead
Praying and crying for the rescue to come
Trying very hard to raise your head

Then heard a very rich and lazy voice
Asked you to make a very hard choice
Live as you are now or allow me to love
Take only one moment to say life's purpose

Looking at the person you are not able to move
So beautiful, handsome and pure like a Dove
don't want to wander your eyes in any direction
Dazzled by the aura wears like a milky white robe

Awaiting opening arms wide enough inviting you
Sweet smile on the face creating amazing hue
Standing with full of patience and calm face
It's your choice to like me or not but I like you

Now you are confused to come out and be happy
Should you accept leaving behind being sappy
Can you gain courage to council with yourself?
are you lucky enough to come out the place of crappy

Then the voice reached again making you feel,
Safe and protected, you are not in the shell,
Soothing you with patience they are asking you
Take my strength and share with me your whole tale

And suddenly you want to talk everything
No more shy and scared you want to do something
So you started talking and told that’s all in your mind
Poured your heart to them not leaving anything

Relaxed not feeling lonely when you are alone
Able to look everything clear so all pending work done
Happy and free you want to sing and dance with him
Looked back and they are there with arms wide open

Run run, don’t hesitate to receive the prize of happiness
Cross all the hurdle and leave behind all that making you stress
All won’t be easy but be fine when you met your soulmate
Enjoy the life and be happy to leave all that come with fullness.

Monday, 26 November 2018

Stories to tell

I have to write so many stories,
But stories are not in my mind.
I have to paint so mane scenes,
But papers float away by wind.
What should I do, asked myself,
But all I got is a very long silence.
Kept away pen and pencil in the self,
But started admiring the dance of light.
Still I am running in search for the answer of life,
But got confused by number of tasks going around.
Shied away from adventure keeping me safe,
But longed for plants and bird sound.
Wanted to tell all my  stories to flowers,
But very lazy to reach out to beautiful garden.
I have to go for a walk after taking shower,
But to paint and make stories I ran for a caravan.😜😜

Written by Ninadini Panda

Sleep that's peaceful

What am I doing!! without sleep without dream
Leaving the life with full of shadows and gleam.
Not able to move a single inch in any direction
Like bound to a place with a strong iron chain.
trying to release myself using all my strength
When I fight to be free, increases its length.
The darker it gets longing for a ray of Sun
Instead one day I got the soft light of Moon.
Hold it tight in your fist ordered my heart
search a way open your eye with that light.
Such started to move after taking a moon bath
Slow and steady opened the chain and a small path.
Crawling and shading happy tears with a smile
came out of the hole of wrath and place of vile.
at last under the open sky and twinkling star
Looking around and wondering which place is here.
I cleaned my wings and opened those ready to fly
Air became clean and more blue became the sky.
you are free now out of dark message they sent
Go away as far as possible and be independent.
smiling, dancing with the song of nature
Started my life and started myself to nurture.
All color joined to make dream so beautiful
Along happiness reached sleep that is peaceful.

Nice day

Get up get up you sleepy head
Sun is high, already give up the bed.
Wash your face and brush your teeth
Start your morning with fresh breath
Have a smile on your face from your heart
Give the day a very positive dreamy start
Dress up smartly and beautify however
Admire yourself while looking at mirror
Send a kiss to your all time love i.e. you
Breakfast on the table is next in queue
Wishing you a great day ahead
Start the journey to the place of your deed.

Thursday, 4 July 2013

Irritation or Silence of Irritation

 What is Irritation? And what is Silence of irritation. According to me both are same. Is that an emotion or emotional pond about to explode?
As per me when one person is not able to express about something bad they felt or not able to speak out what is inside them or express them. It comes out as irritation, the behaviour which they show to everybody, not only the person they are angry on or something like that.
One time all such emotions closed inside you will try to flood out. If you won’t let it out, it will show everybody as irritated person or silent person because of irritation. First one eats everybody’s head but the later one admires some.
Still as per me neither one is good as it is eating you inside making you weak emotionally as well as physically.
A suggestion if you take good for you, if not it’s not bad for me-;)
If you are angry on somebody just speak there itself else write down some where so that some of your emotions will drain out. May be you will get some relaxation and understand or analyse the situation better way compare to show the irritation on everybody. May be you will get strong enough for the next situation. Also try to avoid the person who made you angry for some time. It will help to collect your whole being.
If you are not feeling safe to write it speak or write down and keep, just tear it out (write on a paper and tear and throw out). Don’t make yourself silence or show irritation to others. It will spread not reduce.